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What are you so worried about in this time? All we ever do is try to go for what we love, and that is exactly what you are trying to do in this life. Be ambitious when the time allows you to and make bold decisions that you would not regret making time after time.

Who else is going to make those decisions for you but yourself? Surely there is a time and place for everything. However, what is going to happen when you cannot seem to make a decision based on primal fears that you are holding onto?

Surely at this point in time all you can do is pursue what you love and give all to what you decide on in the end. No one else can make those decisions except for you. So don’t give up on yourself.

Simply give up on the matters that do not meet those expectations where you want to go for those ambitions and feelings towards other forms of love. In life and in nature, pursue that wholly.



The light is over-exaggerated as a concept. Instead of seeing this as a duality in life, it’s become an ideal that’s impossible to attain. By ideal, we want to see ourselves in the “purest” part of ourselves and being “light workers” or “positivity”, or anything that makes us separated from the rest of ourselves. Sure we can embrace the light, but we really have to see how the darkness allows for this to actually happen. People wouldn’t be where they are without seeing their own darkness or other’s darkness influencing them to grow. The light is seeing this and overcoming it as a whole. It’s an element we see for sure. We want to be bright, confident, noticeable, warm.

So then, what we want to be isn’t actually light. It’s the attributes that are associated with light as a symbolic sign. It’s a metaphor. We are always trying to be our best and through our continuous efforts, we can see these traits helping others to find their own version of these traits. This includes ourselves and what is considered the inner child. The parts of ourselves we deliberately hide in the darkness. The ones which didn’t seem important in the moment of everything else. Those very traits we want to express are in this darkness. Because we are scared. Darkness is comfortable because it is a reminder of sleep, quiet, when thoughts are not overwhelmed and we can be away from others for a couple hours. Then naturally we seek to hide these traits in the dark, in hopes that when we do express them, we are more comfortable with ourselves to do this. The light is actually what would be scarier in response, because you cannot hide things as easily. If you mess up and others can literally see what happened then what will occur. In the darkness you can play it safe and unless someone can really see well enough, these parts can rest easier.

Then, to define light would be more like this: truth, radiance, change.
Dark would be like this: comfort, hidden truth, silence.

To balance both of these types of traits allows for a powerful quiet when in times of need. To be vulnerably open when there is conflict or adjustments. When someone glaringly claims to be of a very definitive label or title, are they really claiming as such? See if one can spot the hidden truth underneath the simple words. For there is a greater darkness that is not addressed and it truly dims their own form of balance. After all, people are attracted to those who reflect similar energies. Think about what makes you comfortable, is it due to true comfort with yourself or a comfort you have decided to settle with?

This post was originally made Dec 2020



How were you as a child and how do you interact with people now? Are you still playing a certain role due to survival or have you moved onto embrace what you wanted then?

Basically what part of you is needing to be acknowledged and cherished with. There are some who allowed others to walk over them and continue to do this instead of acting for themselves. Then there are those who had to grow up much faster and as a result, they are learning to be silly and childlike again. There are those who balanced others before themselves and have to learn their own inner balance with their needs. In other words, how do you perceive yourself when you are with other people.

When you chase after someone’s affections without taking anything in return, what does that say about yourself. That you want to in turn want to receive this tender love of being loved and to not have to give yourself so much as well. Or if there is a sassiness type of interaction, the feeling of being bolder or being able to say what you want is evident. However running in comparison is that inner conflict or resolution from thinking within. It’s turning away from things which are unknown and understanding why. Or simply getting away from what makes you scared. Then the question is asked why something makes you instinctive leave. What parts of yourself are you ignoring because you don’t want to see them. In other words, what traumas or bad habits have you taken upon yourself from these external sources and used them as coping mechanisms. The willingness to overcome these allows for a revitalized version of yourself. Things start to get a little clearer and that fog of confusion lifts ever so gently once you realize.

This can be with anybody. Friends, family, potential romances, squishes, etc. Once one starts to see how they play certain roles around other folks, it’s a good question to ask. Is the way that I am reacting to certain people evidently myself or a part of myself that needs to change? Is it that I am reflecting someone else’s feelings about themselves of a lesson I’ve already overcome or have yet to conquer?

This post was originally made Nov 2020